sunrise sunset

this feeling of anxiety and despair inside of me, trying to keep it down but knowing at any second that it will come back and only make life hell for myself. reminiscing of past times. one smile so sinister with a personality to match. back seat of my car, adn the moon only getting to know us better every night. you carry the heart that signified just another marking in my book of past flings. but this time it i made one, god know where its at today. lets hope you still have it. upon these memories i only recieve two things a feeling of anger and disappointment. ive been trying to avoid this but now it has to end one way or the other we'll finish this off right. if youre reading this you might now who you are, and maybe you'll look at yourself in the mirror and realize the change you brought to yourself. caked up and faked up, cheating only yourself and firing the furness that is my anger towards you and every subject that follows. and for the one i know will read this its not you. from this point right now i dont care

its 6:30am and i havent slept i have to be at school in 4 hours and yet im still up writing these blogs about the shit that haunts me like a ghost

from countless sunrises spent doing god knows what

to sunsets spent arguing

miles upon miles

hours on top of hours

bottle after bottle

one lie after another

this is where i draw the line, today we find out if its destiny or a failed cause

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